I have no idea what I weigh today, I am too scared to step on the scale.  The warm weather has left me feeling like a fat lump.  I hate summer, I hate summer for it's heat.  I hate not being able to hide behind a baggy sweater and jeans.  Liquids all day for me and walking... lotsa walking.  I was down to 155lbs. and I was so proud of myself for that, I was making progress.  Damned binging has set me back again.  Why do I always sabotage myself?  I hate food and yet it's all I think about all I want to do is b/p all day.  I won't do it... liquid fasting commencing NOW!


HT - 5'7
HW - 189lbs
CW - 163.0lbs.
LW - 105lbs.
Next Weight Goal - 140lbs.

GW - 110lbs.

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Feeling FAT!!!

Today I feel like a super fat ass.  Did awesome all day to keep the calories down.  I want to hit my mini goal weight of 140 in the next month.  I feel like from there any further weight-loss will be easier to imagine.  I hate the meds I'm currently on for keeping me this huge.  Must work harder.

HT - 5'7
HW - 189lbs
CW - 163.0lbs.
LW - 105lbs.
Next Weight Goal - 140lbs.

GW - 110lbs.

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Back & NOT HAPPY!!!

Facebook = GRRRR!!! >.<

The whole reason for first starting my blog was to reach out to other girls in the same situation as me.  Support is always important no matter what you are going through in life.  I quickly found that on Facebook, and blogged less frequently due to the huge and loving support system I had found there.  Facebook has since locked me out of that account and I have lost all the friends I made there. :'(  This breaks my heart, I feel so alone and lost without their support, love and messages  to look forward to each day.   FB is supposed to be FREE and if I didn't abuse the site (which I didn't) I don't understand the lock out.  I am saddened by this and know of several hundred other girls this happened to as well previous to me.  However, silver lining... I will be back to blogging regularly. :)  Ally xx

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